Sixty-One Days Ago I Began Again

Exactly sixty-one days ago, I started changing the pieces of my life that I was not satisfied with at the time. I couldn’t understand why I was not feeling happy, even though I started a fantastic job in February that I love. I already had a personal trainer that I was seeing, so I was already trying to fix one problem. I had just started school again to get a certification in Project Management, which my job happily pays for because they want to cultivate their talent base.
Trying to evaluate, I knew it wasn’t my job causing the discomfort. I have been praised by leaders in my company because I am doing a great job, I am becoming respected as a young woman making a career for herself. I work in health insurance, organizing programs and grants that help people get access to better quality health care. I am happy, finally, with the work portion of my life. But there was still a nagging in the back of my mind that I could not stop. I think my previous position made me unhappy, helping mask my other issues. One of which is my health.
I realized that my own health was not up to par with what I wanted. I THOUGHT I was doing something about it with multiple days cardio and the personal trainer. One major problem that I have experienced in my life is back pain. Although I was working hard, I always took ten steps back when I had a major flare up. Then I did not ever get back on track. I also have very little self-control when it comes to food, which didn’t help when I was stressed over a flare up.
At the time, sixty-one day ago, I did not realize that cardio was one of the factors contributing to my back pain. Cardio was supposed to be good for me, help me lose weight and prevent my back pain. Then my personal trainer told me that weights were the way to go, therefore, I went. Why not? Pain sucks. Thus, one part of my life changed. Weights have not caused my back pain to come back. I thought the pain was a result of just being me, I didn’t reconcile that it was me doing it to myself since the repetitive motions were difficult on my sensitive spine. Cardio is great, but it is not great for me.
At the same time, I experienced a cosmic shift in my thoughts about my eating habits. Needing control, I started tracking everything in MyFitnessPal. According to my records, I have lost 18.2 pounds in sixty-one days. I will continue to do this, since it works for me, and in spite of being told my way of dieting would not work for others. It might not. However, I am not intuitive, therefore, I need control.
So, I’ve gotten on a dirt path with my weight training and healthy eating habits. I like being school and just made a perfect score on my first of four classes.
There is just one last missing piece: writing.
A few years ago, I wrote the entire first draft of a book. It’s not awful, I’ve recently been told. But now I need to touch it up, make it sing, and make myself happy doing it. So, I printed it at Staples and had it bound with coil, so I could feel legit. This weekend, I am going to a writing conference, which is unrelated to editing my first draft, but this will also make me feel legit (especially with the business cards I am printing).
Last, but not least, somehow, I found myself listening to a webinar on “Better Book Ideas” through The Write Practice. This is one of those situations where I have been a long-time lurker, first time participant. I am now signed up for the 100 Day Book Challenge. I do like myself a good deadline and a goal, yes? Sounds like a great idea.
I am excited about this portion of my life. I keep saying I can’t wait to see myself in six months. I think it is a mantra. Maybe I will get it tattooed somewhere as a reminder. I am hoping everyone is right about making changes can drastically change one’s life. I need it.

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